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Scar

We are a people of scars,

neither guaranteed protection

nor escape

from pain's slice and consequences.

But we are also created

for healing;

not healing whose visibility

or consequences vanish;

people who are found

by a forgiveness

that debrides our wounds,

rinsing away anger, malice,

resentment, and vengeance,

disinfecting them with grace,

packing them with mercy;

people whose flesh falls back together,

not in seamless invisibility,

but rough, bumpy reminders

of our past;

people who somehow

find the courage to seek catharsis

in our history's telling;

people whose hearts

are forever being pointed

toward the true north of hope.

Yes, this is who we are;

not perfected but blemished,

not fearless but courageous,

not arrived but journeying;

journeying together,

as a people of pain

who recognize the possibility

of tomorrow’s dream.

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The slice of pain....ouch......

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The imagery here is so vivid, Todd, and it resonates very clearly for me. Thanks for sharing it with us!

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So real! Thank you!

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Sweet work, Todd. I love "the true north of hope" Indeed, this is who we are. Thank you for articulating that so beautifully well.

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What's the pain level

On a zero to ten scale

When your heart is sad.

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whew! i will not be able to stop thinking about this. it makes me think of my work in both mental health and physical rehab settings. this is it what each person i saw was telling me. it doesn't matter if you're dealing with a decline in physical or mental health..grief is so central to the experience and it's rarely addressed as such.

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You have pow words, becky.

Amen.

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Oftentimes, it is 10 X an unimaginable digit.

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Too big

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I am here, should you need

an ear to fill with your

songs of sorrow.

Sometimes, in order to

release the ache,

we have to let someone

borrow it for a while, so

.

if you have to, say it sideways

and I will tilt my head;

I will lean in to hear it

if it must be whispered,

to be said, or we can climb

straight up a mountain until

only trees surround

.

and you can scream

until you're breathless,

so loud that the only sound

we will hear is the echo

of pain reverberating

from your mouth.

Let it out;

.

I am listening.

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This is stunning!

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This is one of the most beauitful poem songs I have read. Thank you for listening.

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what if, just this once,

we grow curious

about each other's pain?

sit with. listen. just be.

mind open. hearts soft.

really see.

would it change the world,

this radical love?

i like to think it would

but we won't know for sure

until we try

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Naming is taming.

Pain

What shall I name you

so you may become

a companion of my heartbreak and hardwork

rather than the cause of my suffering.

Stephen Jenkinson once wrote

that avoiding pain causes sufferring.

I wonder if wallowing in it,

splattering my pain(t) across the walls for all to see

does the same.

That depends on the one who sees it.

For I have dear friends

who have sung hymns in response to the messes I've been

Enchanting rainbow-coloured glitter to shine through

what has now become art.

And my pain is now ours

and our pain is now bonding

creating mosaics shifting whispering

you are welcome as you are

and we are stronger with you here.

- found family

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So precious to have found family!

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It really is. I didn't expect to be so full of gratitude after this poem. I'm looking forward to sharing it with them after this. I hope you have some as well!

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I do, just not close by!

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That is aleays hard, too. My people are not super close either :(

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*Glitter…. Art…. Mosaics….*

Yes!

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Natasha, this is an incredibly moving, real and honest poem. It resonates with me, and I love the poles you create with Jenkinson's quote and the question you pose "I wonder if wallowing in it, splattering my pain(t) across the walls for all to see does the same." Then "depends on the one who sees it. Wow! What a gem of a poem this is!

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Hi Larry, thank you for sharing how this affected yoy and I'm so happy it resonates with you!

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It is a true joy and revelation to read. I like the creative pain(t), a small indicator of a wild, creative and brilliant heart and mind!

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Hahahaha well that reframes ot from my feeling of hating binaries and refusing to choose. I suspect much of creativity comes from refusing to choose.

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You are very insightful!

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A roaring in my ears

A struggle for breath

A breaking and twitching

like the legs of a dead spider.

Don't touch me

Don't look at me

Let me suffer

Let me dissolve.

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Don't touch me. Sometimes it's too much!

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That roaring, that silent loud roaring is deafening.

I hear that sometimes.

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😭😢😔

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This is awesome, Lisa, very powerful and evocative. "Don't touch me, don't look at me, let me suffer, let me dissolve." I feel the power in your words. Geat work!

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Pain

A reminder

That we're human

Pain

A reminder

That we need each other

Pain

A reminder that we have needs

Pain

Physical or emotional

Pain

I love it when you're gone

And I can move/breath again

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Nice work, Gloria, very creative and clever. I like the repeated reminders you offer--how neccessary and true wisdom.

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Thank you!

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I'm tempted

To wrap you

In cotton wool -

Each bump

And bruise

Hurts my heart -

Each teardrop

And tumble

Takes its toll.

But then I'd be

Missing out -

On your resilience;

On my capacity

To hold space

For your pain -

For our pain.

So instead of

Always calling out

'Be careful!'

I try to adventure

Alongside you,

And trust that pain

Is part of the package.

And cotton wool

Is not needed.

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Oh, I feel this one. My mom always used to say she wanted to put us in a bubble (I think she still does sometimes) and I understand the sentiment so well now.

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It's funny how these truths become apparent to us at different stages in our lives.

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I love this Sarah! As a parent and a grandparebnt, I feel this one as well. I remember wanting to bubble wrap our kids, trying to protect them from every harm, and coming to know how futile and foolish that was.

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The duality of it gets me big-time Larry!

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I am right with you--that's love in its complex beauty.

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Yes! And since becoming a mother, I notice duality more than ever before!!

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Pain - a journey in three stages

Piercing

Alarming

Intense

Never-ending

...

Persistent

Awkward

Infuriating

Numbing

...

Peace

Acceptance

Internal healing

New growth

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Acceptance.

Good word

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This is nice, Jane. Yes indeed, new growth!

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God of Wholeness,

we so often call ourselves broken

because we’ve disowned the reality

that our mistakes are part of who we are.

Hold us gently when you show us

we have never been less than whole,

because even a good shock

can come with great grief

for the years of pain

when we didn’t know.

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Very nice January! I think of the concept of Imago Dei in reading your poem, and the wonderful redeeming notion of Original Blessing.

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I couldn't help going full nerd on this prompt. My professional fascination as a PT is chronic pain, and I've learned a lot about it over the last ten years. It's not very poetic, but it's what I got today 🤓

The body's ability to

use pain

is fascinating.

To be created

or destroyed,

a two-way road

between the body

and the brain.

For the brain is the body,

and the body affects the brain.

A signal, a warning,

a memory:

pain is a form of

communication.

So our brain creates pain,

even in the absence

of stimuli, just

to make a point.

A familiar building

where trauma occurred,

or a certain smell,

or that one voice

can immediately trigger

a pain response.

The body keeps the score,

as it goes.

Equally amazing:

the brain's ability to block

pain when needed.

Running over broken glass

to save a child,

playing through the big game

on a stress fracture,

the signal effectively

blocked.

And we can consciously

tap into this level of control,

can work on our stress

response, can mitigate

the threats and turn down

the pain alarm.

We have more power

than we know.

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Amazing!!! I go to PT weekly and today we are just talking how everything is connected, even the pain. 😬

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This is really nice, Sarah. I can tell it comes from someone who knows pain, who works with it every day. And I think of such a wonderful combination, a PT who is also a poet. Sign me up~!

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Larry, you are so sweet and encouraging with your comments :) thank you!

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You are welcome!

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This came out much longer than I anticipated, but the words seemed to know the way.

^

They lined up by the dozens

ragged and rugged band

of sojourners wrapped in pain,

hoping desperately for healing.

^

They came for a gentle touch,

a whisper, a soft glance

the powerful presence

in that space where love lives.

^

Some danced away in ecstasy

others sang to the spirit winds.

Some slowly walked in circles

some resumed life as they knew it.

^

Watching the crowds gather,

one question keeps rising:

who will heal the healer’s pain?

Who will bear a witness of the heart?

^

Who will seek to help carry the weight,

to soothe the tired heart,

to bandage the wounds visible,

to pray for the scars unseen.

^

Who will be a witness to

the breaking of hearts once healed,

the closet doors once thrown open,

closed again with locks on the outside.

^

Who will listen to the pain,

of those who left without a trace,

or those whose traces cannot be erased.

The tears that fall like autumn rain.

^

Who will heal the healer’s pain?

Is it those tears that wash away the sadness,

the love exchanged in sacred silence,

the stitches that mend the broken places.

^

Who will heal the healer’s pain?

Lie there through long silent night

holding pieces of gentle broken heart,

breathing into life the love that has no beginning

or no end.

^

Who will heal the healer’s pain?

We will, precious one,

circling around you as twilight nears,

grateful in this moment.

You are not alone.

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Sometimes, the line of people winds all the way around the block and through the neighborhood park. It’s like there’s a flashing neon sign:

Healing and Hope

Learning How to Cope

Bring what you have.

Bring who you are.

Come with your pain,

from both near and far.

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I hear this Todd, having been in and out of the line and in every facet of the continuum.

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The cure for the Pain

Is in the Pain

So said Rumi

Somedays it lingers

Other days

It flows right thru me

Pain is

Your greatest teacher

So said Gibran

That makes some of us

Very well educated

And yet, we move on

Pain and Pleasure

They flow from the same stream

Keeping us on our toes

As we choose what to dream

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This is good stuff, Jimmy. Surely in concert with Rumi and Gibran!

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Go on - waltz around the

unasked / unanswered question

the elephant in the living room

The crumbling pulls my vision in

and feelings arise unbidden;

a shift, the return

organic waste and woe

an archive of aging.

Crisp edges vital

transform: now!

Organic ending

skips over the textures

that invade my eyes

Rot sets in

right on schedule /

just in time,

calling, and not so faintly;

reminding the vibrant of inexorable beckoning -

recalling eternity?

Only if we breathe and allow it in

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Open the hatch locked tight against the world

Use your fingernails if you have to

Feel the bite of the metal as you

scramble at the seal that lets nothing in

-

Crack it open slowly slowly

Glimpse the reality of this world

the fires ravaging trees

the oil splitting oceans

the people walking walking

carrying everything

unable to look back

-

Let the pain sweep you and awaken you

the jagged lightning

the dull ache

the twisted knot

-

Let the pain be your compass as you

step out beyond the hatch

toward hope

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I love this Grace. It is so vivid and and rich in is imagery and how it truly connects me to the experience. I like each line, and the next to last stanza is superb:

"Let the pain sweep you and awaken you

the jagged lightning

the dull ache

the twisted knot"

So good. Thank you for sharing this!

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Pain

With the young mother’s

guttural cries of distress

At the sight of her home in rubbles,

her precious kids

under the caved in structure,

The glimmer and spark in their eyes

Erased by the inhumane

Indiscriminate bombing

from a state set on

murdering, starving, and driving

her people off their ancestral homeland,

My heart broke again.

And I enjoined my wails

To her engulfing pain

No amount of soothing will ever

Erase.

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This is a powerful poem, Pascale. It is so difficult to imagine the level of devastation and pain being inflicted.

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