Katie on The Liminality Journal

[Katie]

Dearest Bug -

Oh how proud I am of you

Pushing through life shining bright to those around you

Finding love and handing it out just the same

Making the world dance because life is too short

A lesson you had to learn, my dear, too soon

I am sorry

Oh Bug - how I wish I could be there for you

My heart

You need someone to take care of you

I see it from afar, I feel it

I left and you stepped up, no one stepped in for you, how brave

The toll it has taken these past 20 years

Is a chasm of suffering and emptiness

I am sorry

Bug - please hear me when I say

You deserve time

You need the space

Take the rest, believe me, I never did

Recharge and find balance, remember that?

You have the tools, I see them

I am sorry

Please Bug, show yourself the compassion

Find the grace

I am here holding it all for you, so you can rest

So you can heal

I beg this of you, for you, your friends, family

I am sorry this is your thing

I am sorry it has to be this way

I am sorry I am not there

I am sorry I left when you were young

I am sorry things have never been the same

I am sorry the burden fell on you

I am sorry I never met your partner

I am sorry I never met your babies

I am sorry

I am sorry

I am sorry

But Bug, please please,

Find the courage to take the step.

I love you