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Sep 16Liked by Kaitlin Curtice

Being comfortable

With being uncomfortable

Knowing I’ll never know

What emerges next

There is a cosmic melody

Whose notes may seem new

Within an ethereal symphony

Orchestra of life

Conducted by death

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beautiful!

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Thank you both Kaitlin and Julie. I do not really consider myself a poet but sites like this are very encouraging to just write what springs forth.

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Sep 16·edited Sep 16Liked by Kaitlin Curtice

Every step I take

I have never taken it before.

Each breath I breathe

I have never breathed before.

Yet a mask of familiarity

encases my experience.

Fences containing the moment.

Blinders keeping in the ordinary.

The scenery around me that

I have come to anticipate.

.

Yet unexpected moments come.

Some like a slap in the face.

Others a wake up a call.

Then there are these cherished

ones that leave me in awe.

Either way the unfamiliar

has come a calling.

What will I do with this

precious moment?

.

What if I truly saw every

juncture as it honestly is?

No matter how it shows up.

No matter the story-line.

Just being present

with myself, with life.

Understanding that...

Each heartbeat, is a gift of life.

Every step, a threshold crossed.

Each inhale, breathtaking!

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Sep 16Liked by Kaitlin Curtice

"Fences containing the moment." ❤️ How many fences have I constructed in my life to shield me from the discomfort of the miraculous? I loved that line, really made me think.

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Yes! Wonderful contemplation.

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The blue grosbeak appeared from the cornfield

like a dream.

My mind tried to pin it to a species I already knew

even as I slammed on the brakes,

my bike scattering gravel—

A particularly small grackle?

A cowbird looking blue in the evening light?

But it glowed with a blue all its own,

and flitted across the trail

where it vanished into the cottonwoods.

Later my bird guide put a name on it

and I marveled, 'cause I'd always wanted to see one.

I wrote down the event

as something good that happened in a shitty, shitty week.

May I always welcome the unfamiliar

with the delight I welcomed the grosbeak.

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This is do sweet, tender and surprising, Lisa! Good things can happen on the bike!

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Thanks so much! I really treasure my time spent on a bike, getting out away from the hustle of town.

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Love this. I had a butterfly sighting once during a dark, dark season that this reminded me of.

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Moments like that are so important to hold onto! Seeing nature helps get me out of my head when I'm feeling harried or anxious.

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I love it when a light flicks on under a pile of poop 🙂

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Me too! Birds are particularly good at doing that for me. :)

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Sep 16Liked by Kaitlin Curtice

I am the last leaf to unfurl in spring,

Huddled close in darkness,

Averse to the risks of sunlight.

I am the last bud to welcome summer,

Closed as a fist,

Dreading the tender pain

Of opening.

I am the last leaf to release in fall,

Clinging to my mother's hand,

Hoping to stall the embrace of the earth.

You would think

I'd have learned by now

That the next story is always best welcomed

With a brave, soft cheek, a clean apron, and open hands.

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So beautiful. Thank you!

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A clean apron..... ha.....

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Sep 16Liked by Kaitlin Curtice

I admire

those

who can be

strong

in the face

of uncertainty

and regret

that I am not.

The holy ones say

that the weak

are in fact

strong.

If so,

there may

be hope

for me.

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Sep 16Liked by Kaitlin Curtice

I don't know

I don't know how to do this alone

I don't know where to turn for help

I don't know what to do next

I don't know what will happen to me now

I have known this way for so long

The familiar routines

The familiar faces

The familiar way each day goes

I don't know how to be

In this new unfamiliar chapter

That lies ahead

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Amen

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Sep 16Liked by Kaitlin Curtice

don't be faint-hearted.

the alpha of everything

dawns unfamiliar.

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yes.

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My grandma knew

the trees by name—

which is different

than knowing the names

of the trees. I didn't

pause to learn them all

from her, but mostly

listened to her love and

watched her shake ash

from the lipsticked

cigarettes she held

like talismans against

her fear.

*

For fifteen years, now,

every stranger's tobacco,

every flower and tree,

whispers her memory

and a song of how much

we can't yet know.

*

Today I smell neighbors'

bonfires and know

autumn arrives,

as the geese overhead

announce, as my

dry knuckles and

cinnamon hopes

suggest, and my kids'

first sniffly cold

of the year.

*

Who can say what

comes next? I seek

to gentle my heart

in the unknowing, to

breathe with all

that is beyond me—

even as I begin

to ask the trees

their names.

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This was so tender and lovely. Thank you for this gift.

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Lovely. Thank you for sharing.

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"with everything I have, with nothing

in my hands"

these lines! Thank you. <3

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She in unfamiliar,

this soft body that ebbs and flows

with the moon

Those that resided inside of her

have softened more than just abdomen.

Heart, inner dialogue, resistance,

empathy and creativity,

all stand taller and smoother.

She is unfamiliar,

but she is not unknown.

These pieces come forth from the depths,

like buried truths or treasure.

Dug out by those who only knew her

from the inside first.

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"Dug out by those who only knew her from the inside first." YES!

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It comes in gasps

in the sea of uncertainty

gasps of purifying air

and bitter sea water

What to spit out

what to keep

the edges of safe and unsafe

blur

The more I flail

the worse I flail

waiting for a hand

to lift me out

When all I have to do

is lay back

ride the waves

and breathe

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I don't have a poem to share but reflecting on this prompt and Kaitlin's poem, and reading everyone's contributions inspired me to do some journaling, so perhaps this is will be the way I participate this week. Thank you for this experience, Kaitlin, and thank you, everyone else for sharing your art. Poetry is powerful, mysterious, and beautiful.

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