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Your poem was about letting go of fear, and I wrote about how I can't😅

Someday,

I will die.

Someday,

every one

I have ever known

will die, and

I can't know

how it will happen, and

I can't prepare

for every scenario.

I will leave things

unfinished, and

I will leave behind

people who may

still need me.

We are only guaranteed

this one life.

We are only guaranteed

the end of it.

What am I to do, then,

but breathe

until I can't?

What am I to do

but beg

these atoms of mine

to hold tight,

just for a while?

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Found this a few weeks ago. Your poem reminded me of its message:

The Latin "Dum spiro, spero" means "While I breathe, I hope."

The second half of this faith statement is, “Spero autem amo.” which means “While I hope, I love.”

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Beautiful. My sentiments exactly.

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I relate to these concerns and questions, and I have found too, all I can do is breathe, hope and pray.

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This is splendid, A. You look at your fear straight on, the answers to the questions you pose at the end inherent in the depth and strength of your poem. What a poem of truth and clarity. Thank you!

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Very poignant words and thoughts. “What am I to do but breathe until I can’t?” ❤️

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....Atoms, hold tight.....🙂

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I really needed to read this today! I feel like I'm breathing more easily. Here's mine:

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FEAR

.

A thrum in my chest

Like the background music in a movie when the scene is tense

And you know that any moment

A monster is going to jump out:

But I'm just on my computer,

Or washing the dishes,

Or taking a walk.

"What do you want me from me?!"

I ask my anxiety.

"What are you trying to warn me of?!"

And the small inner voice replies:

"Oh, that part is a secret. :)"

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The smiley face at the end is everything.

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Lol, it's a reference to a meme and I couldn't resist using it. I imagine my brain making this face at me all the time. X)

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Yes! Fear wants to convince us that it knows something we don’t, and that what it knows is scary. Fear will do anything and everything to make us forget that we are both fully known and wholly loved, because fear can’t hold a candle to love; neither can it extinguish love’s flame.

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Exactly! Anxiety thrives on being nameless.

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Ah that last line!!! So true. Why would we possibly need to know why we are in such a frenzy?!

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I just wish my brain would give me a hint, though. Lol x)

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This is splendid, Lisa, and resonates so much with me. You capture so well the simple irrationaility that can sometimes be anxiety, its organic nature with no origens. Thank you for sharing.

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Thanks for reading! It's good to not be alone with this experience.

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A thrum.......nice.

(I like words I have to look up)

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It's one of my favorite words! :D

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Fear

Fear blasts its message

of doom across the room

in surround sound.

Promise whispers hope

in the hallway.

If we leave the door cracked,

even just a skosh,

and tilt our ears,

we might be able to hear.

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Oh thank you for this. I sometimes forget to listen for that whisper.

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Love this. Yes we only need a small voice, the dandelion that pushes through the crack, reminding us of the life that is right here beneath the fear. .

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This is very nice, Todd. I love the opening "Fear blasts its message of doom across the room, in surround sound." Oh yes! And I love the end "If we leave the door cracked, even just a skosh, and tilt our ears, we might be able to hear." And that sentence that connects the two "Promisr whispers hope int he hallway." I realize I just commented on every line in your poem, but it came to me in these distinct pieces. And I appreciate the word "skosh," which I looked up and see that it is a cousin of "smidgen." Great work, Todd!

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Thank you, Larry. I believe my high school English teacher would take your comments as a compliment. 🤭

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“Even just a skosh...”

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And they would be right on!

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Fear

Backstage the lights are dim

The hall is quiet

For a moment

There is only me, my clarinet, my hands

Cool, damp, not yet trembling

So far, so good, I think

My instrument, my hands

My strong beating heart

Slow down, I tell it, no need to hurry

There is time

Always time, but then

I lift my eyes

Meet the conductor’s nod

Hear my name announced

The swift rise of applause

Is the only thing my heart hears

Beating faster, ignoring my earlier admonition

I close my eyes

Take one more deep breath

There is time, always time

I walk out onto the stage, smiling

Never let’em see you sweat, I think

This is the most fear I will ever know, I think Knowing that it’s not

A quick peek at the crowd, another breath

I look up

The conductor meets my nod

My hands know what to do

So do my instrument, my heart, my lungs

I let go

And let them guide me

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I remember feeling some of/most of/all of those heartbeats from my seat at my daughter's clarinet senior recital at JMU.

Excellent flashbacks.

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She graduates from George Mason with a Masters in Arts Management TODAY!!!!!!!

(had to get that plug in, sorry)

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Congrats!!!

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Congratulations 🎉

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Congatulations to your daughter and you all! and your comment, Chuck, reminded me of all those moments watching oiur kids at sports, music, drama or presentation time. Quite often, we were more nervous than they were!

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I can feel the fear building and then releasing in your words. Thank you for sharing

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As a fellow clarinetist, this brings up memories!

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I love this Rachel. You capture the moments right before the performance so well and vividly. I just went to a magnificient chorale and symphonic concert on Sunday, and I can imagine every one of those amazingly talented folks had a bit of this in those moments before the condutor raised her hands.

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Thank you for your poem today, Kaitlin. It speaks deeply to my soul. Here is my poem:

FEAR

I thought that I wasn’t afraid

But then I recognized

FEAR

is the thing tethering me

to anger, frustration, despair, and grief

Fear of making waves

Fear of coloring outside the lines

created by society, religion, marriage, family, friends

I’ve worked so hard

To be a good girl

Just like my parents taught me

Unattainable, unreasonable, and impossible expectations

Of course I failed

Now I’m holding the pieces

Of a life lived trying to please others

Pieces I don’t know how to put back together

Because I don’t know who I am

or even who I want to be

and FEAR tells me

it is too late, I am too old,

there is too much to lose

and it is too selfish

to let the little girl inside

speak her truth, spread her wings, and fly away

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I recognize this needing to be a good girl. Fear used as a means to keep women docile, timid and submissive. I recognize this pleasing others as well. For me the nurturer as part of the good girl. Not that there is anything wrong with nurturing, but when it comes as an expectation to give way more than to receive, than there is an issue. I relate to wanting this little girl to spread her wings, and it is not selfish at all. See you flying in the skies!

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Yes! all of those things - especially the expectation to give away more than to receive......It teaches us that receiving is selfish. Thank you for your thoughtful words!

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Yes! I have no idea who I am either. The expectations put on me were in no way malicious but they were expectations nonetheless. Now I’m 50 and I don’t know who I want to be when I grow up.

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"Just like my parents taught me........impossible expectations"

Yup.

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Yes! love this

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This is beauitful, Anne. I know this poem is one of the healing ways you are releasing that little girl. Thank you for sharing this lovely poem.

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Make fear your friend-

Have afternoon coffee

And inside jokes,

Know it’s phone number

By heart and text it

When something big

Feels like it’s building

On the horizon,

Asking fear for advice

Like the besties you are,

Labeled in each others

Contacts by your pet names,

Daily conversation

Between “Life’s Delights”

And “The Unknown”.

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I love this. This feels like a reminder of a life-long work

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I think that is the crux of it all. We have to make space for everything, even the scary things. Otherwise we'll miss the good stuff.

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I love this A.M., and really appreciate your "befriending" of fear. "Know its phone number by heart and text it"...brilliant! I really love your poetry!

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That’s very kind of you ☺️

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A.M. I remember your poetry from last year, and always really enjoy it!

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I always thought fear was

Big

And scary

A monster to my soul

But it was when I faced her I realized

Fear is a small child

Who is in it for my survival

I’ve learned she is much easier to work with

When I ask what the danger is

And hold her hand while we face it

Anyway

🤍🤍

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Yes. Our inner child is so powerful, and needs so much gentleness ❤️

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Fear is not something to fight, but to embrace. A friend not an enemy. And at times that is hard to remember. Thanks for the reminder.

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Thank you - I see it this way too, and also find it hard to remember. It's a tough balance.

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Yes. Invite him in. Ask him what brings him to visit.

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Beautiful!

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Good perspective!

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This exceptional, Alexandra. I love the courage and wisdom, the compassion and empathy you shine into fear, a reminder to shine it not only into our own fear, but the fear we find in others that may cause difficult behaviors and challenges in our own lives..

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Thank you, Larry! And yes, I love what you've brought out about the fear we find in others. A reframe can help us offer compassion to the people who frustrate us most. We are all just scared children in need of care and guidance, at heart.

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I hear you Alexandra. These are brilliant insights.

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God of the Sickle and the Harvest,

you promise us that death is not the end—

only a transformation.

For a while I needed this chaff

that allowed me to grow into wheat;

now strengthen me to face the fire

without fear, because

it’s on the other side of fire

that wheat becomes bread.

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Amen ❤️

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oh my goodness. Speaking goodness my friend

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Thank you Danielle. 🥰🙏🏼

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This is wonderful, January, amazingly powerful in a few words. Your poems are prayers and wisdom words that have an immeasurable deoth.

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Thank you Larry. ^_^

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"Perfect love casts out fear."

"Peace that surpasses all understanding."

Howard Thurman said that

his grandmother

wouldn't let him read

parts of the Bible

to her

because it reminded

her

of her

enslavement.

I think a lot about

this woman's

wisdom.

Through his work

she

was the first to give me permission

to not receive.

I do not need to receive platitudes

that refuse to acknowledge

my pain.

I do not need to receive prayers

when society at large refuses to accommodate

me

I do not need to receive willful misunderstandings

when

I

am not paid to educate.

Receive me.

That is the way to overcome your fear of

me.

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Take heed.

This is not a nice poem.

.

.

.

sinking fangs into

flesh and bone

fails to inflict

fear's fatal laceration.

.

tearing and rending

heart and soul

unleashes within us

fear's ferocious finality.

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This is powerful, Bob, and a wonderful use of letters and cadence! I like the way you begin--with the warning line!

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I am a mother.

I am familiar with fear.

For who is fearless while their precious, precocious, unprotected heart walks around outside of their body?

I am a woman.

I know fear.

What woman hasn't crossed the road and walked with her keys spiked between knuckles to ward off the creeps?

I am a human.

Fear is a friend.

What else has kept our species alive through the generations but a finally-tuned sensor to threats?

Fear, for all its drawbacks, keeps us safe.

Now to find the balance.

To let the fear inform but not direct.

To temper the racing heart with a calm mind.

To know that we are both vulnerable and strong.

Powerless and potent.

Fear will not rule my life.

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This is powerful and so brilliantly written, Sarah. And so true. You have put fear in such an honest and real context, in the process diminishing its power and strength. "Fear is a friend." a small line with big meaning. And your reminder that ferar is an instinct that can protect and keep us safe. This is true wisdom poetry. Thank you.

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Thank you so much for your kind words!

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Fear takes hold of me as the treeline

grows to a distant memory and the breeze

turns to wind. Open, expansive.

Exposed: to the elements, to the risk

of falling, to the realities within myself.

Nowhere to hide and nothing to grab. I turn onward. Is the fear holding me? Or

am I holding on to it? The different determines

where I place my foot next.

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Very nice work, Mary Beth, and splendid use of nature to frame your relationship to fear.

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Thanks Kaitlin, I loved your poem today, touching me deeply. My poem today goes to the feeling in my body when I am stuck in fear, which by the way I have been in the past couple of days.

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Stuck in fear’s tight grip,

I’m inundated and besieged,

by a visceral clamping, clenching.

A drumming pulsation that beats

to a rhythm of suppression.

I’m either frozen in time or

scrambling for an answer.

Attempting to stay anxiety’s grasp

or a victim of worry’s hunger.

Nonetheless I am left overloaded,

overwhelmed, overwrought.

So completely over this!

Can it be as easy as unlocking my heart,

And opening my hand?

Hmmm, it sure is worth an honest try…

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'worry's hunger'. Wow. That is an image that will stay with me

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Frozen in time or scrambling for an answer. Thank you for putting my current season into words.

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I love this Julie! You have given words to how I feel from time to time! Fear often strangles our words and creative impulses, and your words help release my own.

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Forests of Fear

^

It came like a thunderstorm over high peak

unexpected, fierce and fearful in its fury,

early autumn hike high in the Blue Ridge mountains

Bright sunny day into breathless, disorienting journey.

^

Unable to catch my breath, heart pounding,

the sky and earth closing in around me,

panic, worry and fear gripped me,

my hiking partner fazed and dazed and afraid.

^

Some kind folks walked us back down the mountain.

Later in my doctor’s office he said, “you hyperventilated.”

Confused, I could find no how or why, no cogent explanation

as to how that fear found me on that mountaintop.

^

That next year I hiked alone a lot,

determined to face this unwelcome beast,

this invisible stranger invading my sacred places

seeking to paralyze me, contain me, fill me with fear.

^

It was a lonely year, and the beautiful places

Were filled with shadows with no names.

Telling no one, I moved through this lonely place

convinced the only way through the forest was through it.

^

Two years later, the high peaks of southwest Virginia our backdrop,

A new stranger entered my life.

Arrythmic rhythms and palpitating heart

discordant song breaking the melody of my life.

^

A journey unfolding of tests upon tests, theories and research,

confused wiring and ancestors with imperfect hearts,

no one to blame and no way to explain

the shadows seem to speak for themselves.

^

Decades later, I have learned to live with you.

The panic attacks have a name,

the arrythmias an annoying relative,

the beautiful moments in between precious lifelines.

^

Along this winding path, I have seen the real monsters

the creations of hate and anger, violence and fear,

lead me to rest in the quiet of each precious moment,

knowing that even in this forest of fear, there is Love.

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Panic attack is somehow both an apt descriptor of what one feels like and not even close, isn't it? I love how you finish your poem with a reminder that fear isn't the enemy.

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Yes, A., what a strange description. It feels so much stronger than a panic--and sometimes comes on without warning.

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I keep seeing Lieutenant Dan in the crows nest of Forrest Gump's shrimp boat, having it out with god.

The only way thru his forest.

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I love this reflection, Chuck! God bless Forrest Gump!

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How can I accept that the root

of my anxiety is fear?

-

I’d rather it be more elusive

than that - the mysterious

“tug” that my mom and I dubbed

the “gut backwards” feeling

that would send me to

my closet’s darkest corner

knees up, head down

breathe

-

On the wall of that closet

I wrote a list of my fears:

violence, rape, death of

a loved one, even whales

(the ocean incomprehensible

to a girl from the plains)

but these are all

capital “f” Fears

the big ones

not the ones

that dictate my

daily existence

my daily

anxiety

-

I couldn’t stare down

the real fear that

clenched my body

and radiated out

around me with a

pulse of its own

the real fear of

rejection

failure

making too big of

a splash

taking up space

and being wrong

paving my own way

and being alone

-

These fears are the

rot I’ve inherited

from a culture

that bases power in

being the same

that requires courage

to merely be

human

-

So how can I accept that the root

of my anxiety is fear?

By believing that only in

excavating it I might

be free

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'these fears are the rot I've inherited'. Wow. Yes. This reminds me of the image of a poison apple that emerged for me when I started my own therapy.

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And the excavation is ongoing! I love this, Grace. It is so hones,t so perceotive and insightful. Your depiction of the Big "F" ears and the more mundane ones, that grip us every day, is brilliant. you expose the banality of fear so wonderfully well. Thank you for your remarkable poem.

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Fear held me

Fear of failing

Fear of falling

Fear of being a fraud

Now I choose

Hope over fear

Hold on to the good

that is equally likely

Focus on a

brighter future

letting the fear fade

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Jane, this made me rise up and shout "hooray" and applaud for your resilience and wisdom. Thank you for a great poem!

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