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I've always liked the idea that

there was a tool that could

point me in the right direction,

without fail.

I'm not very good at letting myself fail.

Learning to trust my internal compass

instead of looking outward for direction -

reminding myself that

it's okay to get lost,

that maybe there isn't always

a true north to aim for -

has led to me finding myself.

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failing is where we learn the most and sometimes where we have the most adventure.

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"without fail"

not really a thing, is it.

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I appreciate the honesty here, and the way that you have thoughtfully and simply shared the lesson with us now. This is beautiful. To many more years of losing yourself to find yourself more <3 Blessings.

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Letting myself fail, (on purpose, for the greater good).

humble. and tuff.

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Compass

Maps and tools,

books and rules,

were things I used

to help me

find my way.

Well-worn paths

and charted routes

and tour guides

by my side

didn’t get me

where I wanted to go.

Till I found myself

out in the deep,

no traffic at play,

no signs to point the way,

and the shore

nowhere in sight.

So I listened

to an inner place,

that inner place of knowing,

and although the fears were growing,

I found even the fears

had something to say.

I was not lost.

In fact, I knew

my destination,

and I found my

my compass location

within,

and it led me

to find my way

back home -

to me.

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Wow

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I feel the pain of

Disconnection

In my solar plexus

Sun-shaped braids of

Nerves

Ache with separation

Stretching, searching for

Integration

Back home to True North

Like a compass needle

Finding

Its magnetic field

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I feel that pain too; thanks for the vulnerability and rich healing in your words. I honor that <3

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compass

helps us orient ourselves

which way is north

as we journey

if we are lucky

we have a map

to help us

reach out destination

but sometimes

in life

a compass

will actually hurt us

for it will surely

guide us to

where we want to go

but that doesn't

take us where

we need to go

or help us

learn lessons

for our journey

and a compass

doesn't direct us

to mentors or guides

companions or partners

it doesn't makes us

choose between

the adventurous path

less travelled

or the clearly marked

and crowded

easier path

and in the end

after a prayerfully

long life

we all reach

our destination

home

may we all be

equipped with

a compass

but may we

use it sparingly

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"Prayerfully long life" - beautiful image!

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Oh, what a prayer and a poem. Thank you so much for this, Steven.

I wonder... if we hold our own compass, and it is our interpretation that gives it meaning, do we not have a choice in where we ask it to guide us? In where we ultimately let it guide us?

This whole poem is a fascinating contemplation, and I'd be glad for your thoughts if ever you wish to share more :)

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What a fabulous question. There is a lot to my answer. Some of it is through reflection and prayer and some through experience.

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I think there is something internal inside our created being, given to us by YHWH (God), the Great Spirit, the cosmos, unitive consciousness, or universal truth. We are born with it. Is it heart or soul? I lean toward soul many days and heart other days. At the same time, there is something outside of us that we are connected to that calls us, as you say. It may even be "quantum entanglement" as the physicists say. This yearning to toward the truth calls always. However, I think we can get caught up in constructing our own selves. Was it Freud that spoke of ego? The few psychology courses I had were long ago. Anyway, our ego or constricted self, causes us to be what we want to become, focusing often on riches and material things. While ignoring our true being or raison d'etre, we become constricted by this false or shadow self. It is through great love or great suffering, that we lose that false self and are guided to our true self as she beckons us.

That is a synopsis

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i say its that "kin-dom" that I think Larry spoke of earlier?

Good stuff

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Thank you for taking some time to write such a thoughtful synopsis! I absolutely hear and receive what you're saying, and appreciate it. This is definitely a conversation I would be glad to have with you in more depth sometime :)

I think it is supremely essential to at once have subtle awareness about the movements in our lives of all that you've described above, and also to release the technicalities (the morals, the judgments) and surrender to them as intuitive.

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Where we need to go.

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On Stranger Things,

There was

A wonky compass.

Sometimes I feel

My compass is

Also wonky.

I think people

Or situations

Are safe.

People

Are tricky,

Myself included.

To trust

Or not to

Trust my compass…

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So lovely, Liz! Thank you!

I keep reading "I think people or situations are safe" over and over again, wondering what that means to you :)

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Sometimes, especially in the Midwest, people can be polite on the surface and then you get to know them…

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Not exclusive to the midwest, I'm afraid.

Not safe.

Nice line.

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Oh yes, I see :) I wonder, then, if that's more than merely the fault of your compass in that case.

(This, btw, is why I've since gone to live outside of the US ;) Thankfully, that kind of behavior is also a matter of culture.)

Blessings to you as you keep navigating with that compass <3

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seeking direction

does it tell you where to go

or where you're going

wouldn't hurt to try

getting some clarity here

compass, anyone?

wandering wounded

oh and yes also wounding

perhaps I'll stand still

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VERY nice, Bob! Oh, this hits in incredible and unctuous ways. There's something (I only wish to call) rich and velvety about your honesty and introspection here.

Especially love "compass, anyone?" Yes, please!

Bless you <3

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Compass

.

My heart points me towards the north face of truth,

So I’ll close my eyes

And ask it to guide me.

Thus the journey begins.

.

Why am I looking for all that I’m not

Instead of looking at all that serenades me?

Plain, before my eyes, the path is spelled out;

I will never be able to force what is to be other,

Truth will always live on, fiery forever with me.

.

(Forever’s a few years, and only one more day away,

But I promise I trust you. I do.)

.

Even if you breathe free and deep, and let it go,

You still choose to be right where you want to be.

Where do I want to be?

I look down and see the compass in my hand,

Apple of my eye,

Beating core of the temple.

I look up again and the hall stretches out before me,

Alabaster pillars larger than life shadowing me.

Here, there is certainly greatness.

Yet here, too, I am not smaller than the pillars;

I am the gatekeeper of this endless place.

The architect and builder,

The magician and the master.

Almighty.

.

It’s easy to see that she calls to me,

Beckoning me forward - come hither -

From her throne at the end of the hall,

Willing my steps to soak in her rays.

I wish to bend, to kneel, perhaps even to break;

Instinctively my eyes graze the floor,

Almost pious.

But her magic is strong and it pulls me,

Forward and up, my head raising,

My eyes blazing.

.

“You can come kicking and screaming,”

She says,

“But I’d rather offer you to fly.”

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That is amazing. Some of my favorite phrases.

"Why am I looking for all that I'm not

Instead of looking at all that serenades me?"

"My heart points me towards the north face of truth"

"It is easy to see that she calls me,

Beckoning me forward - come hither "

There is just so much to love about this poem. Thank you for sharing

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Thank you so much for your beautiful reflection, Steven! It’s always the greatest gift to touch my readers in some way 💗 I’m glad you could see the light of this poem.

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North

South

East

West

Did not have much meaning for me

Until I came to live in the place

Where the streets have no name

Only here, in the place I now call home

Can I tell you

Without hesitation

In which direction lie

The points of the compass

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I honor this beautiful journey of discovery, Jane. Thanks for sharing! <3

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a big ass rock that spins poles magnetic. (oolies from fat mr morton's 6th grade earth science)

a location is all it tells.

it doesn't care, it's just a rock.

true north is more like the path

to your coda.

Don't listen to rocks for that.

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Compass

Looking westward across high peaks and alpine meadows,

we take compass and map and make our way,

often on trails, sometimes trekking out across open land.

Confident and assured these tools of geospacial wisdom,

And our humble sense of wonder, would safely guide us.

Ranges of light unfolding their beauty like an epic poem,

A glorious symphony, the laughter of a child.

Sacred moments that never fade from our hearts,

Years go by, and there have been many landscapes to traverse,

trails to follows, bushwacking up rope like hillsides,

rivers to paddle and oceans to cross

full moon to lime beneath and dream,

softy and gently honoring next steps.

We always find our way through these places of fire and ice.

out there our maps and compass shelter us

from the storms of indecision and loss.

It is in here, the spiritscape of the heart,

where we often lose our way.

The terrain of love new and bold, rocky and rugged,

we wander in labyrinths of uncertainty,

afraid to step off the path.

In the depths of our longing, even

the clearest map looks cloudy;

Our compass unable to find true north.

Give me a million acres of wilderness and I will find you.

Through the rolling topography of the heart, I will sing for you.

Each moment of distance a chance to expand,

each particle of loneliness one more sign of the miracle,

quietly unfolding in the silence of our love.

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"His compass, whatever it means, means something" <3 What a wonderful line.

I am grateful for this model of loving witnessing you present to us today, Kaitlin. A beautiful reference and inspiration for us all. Blessings for many more years of such attentive curiosity <3

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Still trying to get caught up from the last week....

The Compass

The compass can sense the direction and show

North, south, east, or west.

It cannot tell me which direction to go

For that the heart knows best.

Karri Temple Brackett

May 22, 2023

https://themarvelousandthemundane.com/2023/05/22/the-compass/

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