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'Mind how you go'

Grandpa would say as I left the house

His way of telling me to be careful

to watch where you step

to pay attention to what's around

Mind how you go -

fill your mind

with the moment

see the sights

hear the sounds

smell the scents

don't let your mind

be so full of other things

that you miss

this one precious moment

Mind how you go

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So precious 😊

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I hate missing stuff.

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This is beautiful, Jane!

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mind full

of what

is a question

worth asking

.

if it is

already full

where do we

integrate

emerging

wisdom

begging

a home

of us?

.

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It’s a trick of the English language, I think, which took me years to figure out. Each day, as I sat, trying to calm and settle my mind, the monkeys kept coming to fill it up.

Finally, I figured out how to practice letting go and emptying, which the word “mindful” (mind full) seems to contradict. It was then that I realized that the empty mind had…

No Bananas

As I sit by the river,

dangling my feet

in the cool water,

longing to refresh my heart

by quieting my mind,

I hear them coming 

around the upstream bend;

finally catching sight 

of a single monkey,

in a flimsy canoe.

Strong-arming his paddle,

perpendicular to the flow,

he slowly drifts toward me,

eyes pleading.

He is followed by a larger vessel

with several monkeys on board.

They kill the outboard motor

and engage the trolling motor,

drifting sideways, so that

I can look directly into

their insatiable eyes.

The final craft in this flotilla

is a large river paddleboat.

Knowing that I would be here,

its captain has already

let the paddle wheel

cease its forward churn.

I stare into a sea

of starving primate pupils,

each one begging.

This is the arrival 

of negative monkeys 

each morning;

haunting, hungry, beseeching.

I used to try to kill them;

dreaming of picking them off,

one by one, centering them

in the crosshairs of my zeal.

Each time I did, they morphed

into clones of righteous indignation

that I grabbed to club

others’ naysaying monkeys,

wincing as my own blood flowed.

This day, I wave and smile,

showing them my empty hands.

My heart whispers,

“I have no bananas for you,

but I wish you peace

as the river carries you downstream.”

Most days they circle back,

sometimes once more,

other times twice or thrice,

disbelieving that I will not

offer them nourishment.

Finally, disappointed and unfed, 

they set their faces

toward the ocean.

Mine tilts toward hope;

toward a holy “yes”.

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Sometimes mine throw poop at me.

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an actual out loud laugh.

I thought I was over toilet humour.

Guess not.

good.

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😂

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🤣🤣

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🤭

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Yes, we have no bananas.

We have no bananas today...

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This is epic, Todd. What a creative and delightful story poem!

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Where do we put new stuff?

or maybe we are done until something leaks out.

pondering your poem.

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Heart hanging heavy

My whole body dragging reluctant to the car

For the 3 minute drive down the long hill to my Mama’s house.

And yet

There was no where else I would rather be going

As long as my Mama was trapped in an ALS frozen body.

It was a Gift to be able to love and care for her

Even if it hurt

To see her hurt.

More than anything

This Season taught me

To resist the temptation to allow one aspect of my life to control me but rather to

Live mindful of the Full Truth of each moment.

Life is not monochromatic.

Moments are rarely if ever

All One Thing.

There are most always dimensions, textures, and flavors to soften hard times.

As I drove down the long hill,

The gray-domed sky thick with gloom felt like

A reflection of my heavy heart and weary thoughts

Then

One small crack near the horizon

Unnoticed before

Let a beam from setting sun

Pierce through and

Transform the gray cloud canvas to

Magnificent magenta and golden sunset splendor!

A miracle in a moment!

Now my heart transformed to reflect the glorious beauty of the skies!

I pulled off and snapped a picture to share with Mama.

Arriving in her driveway,

Stepping out of the car,

I felt some of the weight returning until

A refreshing breeze lifted carrying birdsong, honeysuckle, and a cool caress.

My heart buoyed with these Gifts,

I walked through the door

Feeling supremely grateful for

The Privilege of enjoying my Mama’s presence

And mindful of the immeasurable blessing of the full Truth of each precious moment with her—

For suffering overwhelmed and eclipsed by

Love

Joy

Laughter

And

Celebration of the full spectrum of Life shared.

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woof.

These words paint powerful and familiar colors.

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This is really lovely. Moments are rarely all one thing. Amen.

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The full spectrum 💜

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Truly a gift! Thank you for reminding me.

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I needed this today. Thank you so much for this poem.

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Quiet, quiet

Questions -

Quiet down!

Always, always

Asking -

Makes me frown.

Never, ever

Certain -

I don't know.

Could I maybe

Listen?

Learn to flow?

Listen to the

Questions -

What is here?

Tell me

Intuition -

Make it clear.

Mindful that my

Mind is full -

Give it space.

Show up for

The Questions -

Give them grace.

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maybe.

learn to flow.

please, yes.

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This is wonderful, Sarah. I love how you structure and frame your poem, the use of repitition and the flow of the short lines. Just wonderful!.

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I'm calling this "Well, fuck."

All that stuff /they/ said

about being mindful?

.

It turns out that

they were right,

which means

I'm supposed to

keep doing this

for the rest of my life.

On top of the endless

dishes and laundry,

I get to undertake

the mind-numbing

repetition of being

in my body.

There's a bit of irony

in that, I think.

But, hey, I'm

✨️functioning✨️

(Also, I can't wait for Summer's Gifts! I have a feeling that reading to my kids is how I'll survive being home with both of them all summer, and I am hoping to choose many of the books somewhat seasonally; I've found that helps my reading rhythm and I would love for them to love stories and learning as much as I do.)

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Love the title! And I too am very excited for Summer's Gifts - I just preordered a copy here in Ireland! 💜

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Irony for sure, A. This is so true and real!

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These days I feel I'm too full of my mind

Worries and imaginary conversations

And the burden of every possible future at once.

Could there be a place of rest

Beyond my mind,

Beyond the cacophony of my thoughts?

I am so tired.

I just want to rest.

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Very nice, Lisa! May it be a mindful rest!

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May 15·edited May 16

Mcmindfulness.

i get rich

and

you might not suck as much

but

i get rich.

a win-win-win

cash cow.

Drive-thru opening soon.

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Do kids under 5 eat free? 🤭

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Fullness

In the dark,

when my breath steadies,

and my heart regains

a peaceful rhythm,

something around me —

even in me — vibrates

to a tune of anticipation,

and I feel a quiver

in my marrow.

Is it mindfulness,

or merely me-fulness?

I cannot name it.

Neither can I tell you

when it will arrive;

but still, I feel it, and

I feel it holding me,

like a mother

gently undergirding

a fragile child,

secure and promising;

and in the tenderness

of this grip, I hope,

not just for me or for a few,

but for us, all of us.

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'mere me-fullness' feels too right.

made me chuckle.

and wince.

thank you.

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Me-fullness, for sure!!

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be mindful

search your feelings

do not be afraid

fear leads

to and anger

anger leads

to hate

hate leads to

suffering

be mindful

am I a Jedi?

am I a mystic?

am I a fool?

I don't know

but I am

mindful

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It is the first step.

Set up for the scene

Where you pick out

Outcomes like paint samples,

Try on ideas like mock ups

Of costumes- once the stage

Is set, the play can begin.

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Mindful

-

Quiet moments, finally

perfect time to write poems!

First line typed, and then it begins.

Folks stopping by, varied reasons

all good, kind, caring peeps

with time to spare, to chat…

But don’t they know I have a poem to write?

-

And it strikes me like a brick falling

From the sky,

The prompt is “mindful.”

As in mindfulness, or mindful practice

or present moment thoughtfulness.

Where am I in this present moment?

-

With Jean, speaking of her family,

with Paul talking about hikers lost,

with Donna keeping me up to date

on George’s Appalachian Trail trek,

with Sarah wondering about her future.

-

What a gift each present moment is.

This opportunity to breathe, to feel life,

To sit in safe space with another,

To listen to a beloved share their story.

How could I be anything but mindful?

-

Turn away from the computer,

let the sparks of creativity germinate,

smile at the twists and turns breathed by spirit

know that this is mindfulness,

this place, this time, this room,

this beating heart, these listening ears

opening to this present moment,

this beautiful life.

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The gift of presence is immeasurable.

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That is so right, Todd!

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Mindfulness

Is a practice

With so much

To distract us

It’s hard to be

Mindful

When the mind

Is so full

Soulful

Within the push-pull

It’s not actually

About the mind

Or the fullness

Just practice

Letting go.

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Ooh, I like this

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Mindful

Breathing in

Breathing out

I come back

to my body

I come back

to my self.

Being a witness

To the currents

Moving through me

Holding space for

for the energy

flowing from you.

I tune in

and just be.

Present

Aware

Listening

Curious.

Breathing in

Breathing out

I come back

To this moment

I come back

To you.

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May 15·edited May 15

Inspired as I rode by bike home from work 😄

.

Mindfulness comes easy

as I ride my bike to work.

My senses fight for dominance as

all five strike at once.

.

My nose is filled with

cut grass, lilac, and pollen.

The morning air smells fresh

and new; on my trip home,

smell and taste intermingle when

I'm teased by neighbor's dinner.

.

My ears catch the sounds of passing cars,

wind in the trees, and the many-toned barks

of neighboring dogs.

I pedal past a school

and smile at the sounds of recess.

.

My hands revel in the feel of my leather grips and

delight at the twist of the throttle when

my motor assists me on prolonged uphills.

My back logs each crack in the pavement,

no matter how I swerve to avoid them.

.

Occasionally I get an unwelcome taste

of a car's exhaust that slipped through

the emissions test.

The lingering taste of my morning coffee

reminds me that fresh air is more effective

at readying me for the day.

.

But pure mindfulness eludes me

concerning my eyes.

.

For as much as I'd love to fill them

with the sight of green leaves against

a clear blue sky, or

look for shapes in the cumulus clouds

blowing by,

I must look out

so I don't

CRASH!

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I used to think of mindfulness

As the ability to maintain calm

Stay zen-like no matter the situation

If only…

It was that simple

Sustaining presence under pressure.

I have every intention to—

As warm water cascades over my fingers while washing dishes (Not reliving the patronizing remark a supervisor made to me earlier that day at work),

As I lie in bed reading a book or meditating (Not distracted by an itch in my ear or my aching back)

As I stare out the window at the birds gathering on rooftops across the green (unbothered by the blare of a leaf blower)

As I listen to my daughters’ laughter in the room down the hall (not annoyed by the bickering that soon erupts out of nowhere)

How I long to stay present

In whatever I am experiencing

Appreciating that particular moment—if that’s what mindfulness really is, and if so,

Sometimes I have it, or I think I do,

Except then…(and there is always an “except then”)

Life parachutes into my…

Whatever it is, wherever I am

Reminding me, that is, re—minding my mind

Of what it is missing:

The unpaid bills, missed text, unmade calls

A lost shoe, lost charger, lost remote—

Something, somewhere is always lost,

In need of finding

And in the looking, my own mind is lost,

Off and running, running, running away

Fleeing it’s own jurisdiction

Escaping to more pressing matters

And for a while I am running with it, faster,

And faster,

Trying to make sense, to make sure,

Catch up, dammit, why is this happening…

Until I remember to—stop.

Just

Stop.

Catch my breath instead, hold on

Take it in, let it go, again, and again

The way I live today is the way I live my life—

I think that’s the Buddhist saying

Or was it Oprah—In any case,

For the time being—maybe not for long, but it’s progress—

I am back, anchored, and home.

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For the finding of being found.

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Today I am a loose balloon

released when a kid’s party

went from social to chaos

in a matter of minutes

-

Today I sit down to write

four different times

in four different spots

trying to grasp a moment

-

Today it is enough 

to let my shoulders release

to go outside to get the mail

to fill my lungs with air

-

Today I am tugged down 

by a slow joy that unfurls

when my children smile

and wonder if all along

-

they were guiding 

me home

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That moment…. when the moment holds you.

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